不知何時開始
變成一個 只是聽人家傾述的人
不再對任何人說出自己心裡的感受
開始
學會了保護自己
與人之間 建立起了 很高很大的圍牆
對人 , 對事
也不會放入太多的感情
就算是交朋友
除非 .............
我認定了 , 是我可以信任的人
有些人
容易對受傷件事情 一下子放入太多的感情
結果 , 不受到珍惜 , 處處受傷
而我就是其中的那一个
所以我害怕受傷
" 一開始就不应该放太多的感情 ..."
这其实是自己保護自己的方法
並不代表 .. 我對人不是真心的
只是 ... 不敢放入太多
害怕受傷
如果你找到了你的知己
可以和你分享彼此的 喜怒哀樂
好好珍惜她/他
而我??
其实
不是真正的快乐
我的笑只是我穿的保护色
所以
我决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把我的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
因为
我
真
的
累
了
!
!
That's how m i feeling now!!
what else can i said??
i hate to b good with people..
to care people
N who will come N care about me when i need u??
why i mus b the one who take initiative all the time??
i'm sick of it!
ended up everytime i'm the one who hurt..
But do u feel anything??
will u appreciate everything i do for u??
or that's how the way u think i suppose to treat u??
my heart is crying
tears out from my eyes..
i just need caring from U
a hug or
a shoulder for me lying on
whenever i'm sad!
appearently i have no one, NOBODY!
Alone, tat's what i get used to it~
Best friend? buddy??
dont asked me to trust for it, i dont!!
Eventually all promises, sharing & care will just fade away as time goes by
i cant take it anymore, seriously! is so HURT
i admit i treat u guys ways more better than i treat myself..
for what?? i duno..
i hate to b tat nice & sweet salmon in people's eyes anymore..
Dont find it surprise if u saw me as a bitchy one or b mean on U..
i wil act so when i reach my limit!
Dont craps with me about care & appreciate
i have seen it all !
People is just selfish to themselves only..
From this time now on,
old salmon is dead!
my heart is locked~
I'm DESPERATE
AAAAAaaaaaa......alone!!
so just let it be...
o.O snakey salmon fishy O.o
