不知何時開始
變成一個 只是聽人家傾述的人
不再對任何人說出自己心裡的感受
開始
學會了保護自己
與人之間 建立起了 很高很大的圍牆
對人 , 對事
也不會放入太多的感情
就算是交朋友
除非 .............
我認定了 , 是我可以信任的人
有些人
容易對受傷件事情 一下子放入太多的感情
結果 , 不受到珍惜 , 處處受傷
而我就是其中的那一个
所以我害怕受傷
" 一開始就不应该放太多的感情 ..."
这其实是自己保護自己的方法
並不代表 .. 我對人不是真心的
只是 ... 不敢放入太多
害怕受傷
如果你找到了你的知己
可以和你分享彼此的 喜怒哀樂
好好珍惜她/他
而我??
其实
不是真正的快乐
我的笑只是我穿的保护色
所以
我决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把我的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
因为
我
真
的
累
了
!
!
That's how m i feeling now!!
what else can i said??
i hate to b good with people..
to care people
N who will come N care about me when i need u??
why i mus b the one who take initiative all the time??
i'm sick of it!
ended up everytime i'm the one who hurt..
But do u feel anything??
will u appreciate everything i do for u??
or that's how the way u think i suppose to treat u??
my heart is crying
tears out from my eyes..
i just need caring from U
a hug or
a shoulder for me lying on
whenever i'm sad!
appearently i have no one, NOBODY!
Alone, tat's what i get used to it~
Best friend? buddy??
dont asked me to trust for it, i dont!!
Eventually all promises, sharing & care will just fade away as time goes by
i cant take it anymore, seriously! is so HURT
i admit i treat u guys ways more better than i treat myself..
for what?? i duno..
i hate to b tat nice & sweet salmon in people's eyes anymore..
Dont find it surprise if u saw me as a bitchy one or b mean on U..
i wil act so when i reach my limit!
Dont craps with me about care & appreciate
i have seen it all !
People is just selfish to themselves only..
From this time now on,
old salmon is dead!
my heart is locked~
I'm DESPERATE
AAAAAaaaaaa......alone!!
so just let it be...
o.O snakey salmon fishy O.o
8 comments:
owww...i got da same feeling as u..
now my buddies leave me, i gotta get along and build deeper relationships vf new ones...aiz..
your buddies leave u also?
so r mine..
new ones??
then hw many new ones can u get?
hw many more times can u tried to build??
hw many times more can u accept the hurt that they r leaving n abandon u?
now i realize trust is a big words..
caring is also a big one..
buddy or best friend would b a bigger words for me then..
dont ask me stay positive..
it aint tat positive we could ever take everytime..
i'm giving up!!~~
watever i can bear wit it is more than enough
people would think i go cinema watch movie alone is pathetic,
for me is just wat i get used to it all times~
BUT i duwa influence u with my point of view now..
it rily depends hw far u willing to go for to seek & trust tat real fren is exist!!
i wish u d BEST~~
dont wory, even u dont hv one..
u stil gt ur bestie, DIARy!
i stil hvn got to steal it yet :P
o.O snakey salmon fishy O.o
haha..ya.. u r rite, n r u still tryin 2 steal my diary? haha.. try it!
how r u recently? long time dint hear from u.. so, hv u make up ur decision? studyin advance or HELP?
wow! long time no see...
how r u wor???
Michelle,
i rily still try hard to steal it..
dont locked it so tight plz..haha!
haha..
well..today u jus c me at the cafe lo!
surprisingly actually~~
wish to chat wit u ..haha
but we both busy makan-inG lol!
nvrmind, u stil owe me :-p
so u shud know my decision since u saw me in GK ryte??
hahaha..
dont spread d news everywhere..
i aint tat high profile oo..
keep it low!! heee
o.O snakey salmon fishy O.o
hey morres..
me too long nvr saw u around..
if i c anyone sure i ask where is dat 'morres' hiding?
tak jumpa also.
haha
busy wit ur marketing society activity?
i did hang out wit sum of d swc members sumtimes :D~~
o.O snakey salmon fishy O.o
ya la! wished 2 chat vf u when i met u there! i sat there for long moment ady, until i went out answering my phone call oni realized u were there! so now i know about ur final decision ady. Paid fees ady? if not yet means u still hv chance to change wo... haha..
ya ya..i remember i owe u one.
hey, not dat high profile? u sure or not?
u damn high profile lo k...
me wana chat u in person too.
since so hardly only can meet u up :D
i also din saw u ..cox i jus saw a bunch of ppl was studying there..
dint realize it was u there too..cox ur body behind face to me..cant c ur face.
until u answering phone calls..
i spotted u outside window lo..haa!so paiseh
now deadlines for fees ady over, i'm stil here..dont wory i could run anywhere else ryte? keke
i wer gt damn high profile?
las time mayb yes la..too highly involve around in tarc..
now 'silent' profile ady luuu!
no one wil rmb salmon :D~~
owe me D when can b claim back huh?
waiting :-p
o.O snakey salmon fishy O.o
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