'The Road Not Taken'

Situation : I'm now working.. as a tutor and clerical..
Previously, really no idea how and why?! Maybe because of my curiosity.. At lecture hall that time, there was few SWC members came in and promote their committee.. They will having an interview session looking for new committee members to join them. It just seems interesting to me as i really have no idea what SWC is exactly about.. Because of this, i seems quite interest with it.. Furthermore, my group mates keep saying that they will be heading for this interview.. just for fun and experience.. (actually they joke).. because we know this will not be a easy thing for us to go through it.. Even i'm confident to myself, but we just has no guts and braveness to go ahead for it. Bear in mind, i thought that we will miss the interview.. However, that day after we had our tutorial and lecture class.. so strange.. me and my friends contact each others.. asking whether we should go and try to attend the interview.. Dunno how! Me, mike, yumi and huey ching finally step up to the staircase and reached the SWC room.. Far from outside, we just can see there was a lot of people filling up application form and attending interview inside a room. No choice! Since we made up so far, we just decided to get in there and fill up the form first.. We also met with somebody from SBS (School of Business Studies - Business Administration).. it seems that most SBS students were attending this interview.. After filling the form, me and mike @ yumi and huey ching were being arrange separately for the interview.. Not longer after i hand in my form, mine n mike name being called..that time really don't know how i should express my feeling.. We just get in together and good luck to each others. I met with a senior that in charge of interviewing me.. (didn't get to know his name at last).. First Question : Please describe yourself in two minutes. Deep in my mind.. blank.. what i should said? really no idea.. Everyone will thought that this is for sure an easy question to be handle.. but the facts is actually this is the question that i really can't answer confidently.. because the answer you will be given will determine their first impression about you, either good or bad! I answered it quite careful and slow.. Second Question : Do you know what is SWC actually? i answered him not very clear about it, but it seems somethings related to students and services.. (The correct answer is SWC stands for Students Welfare Committee).. Third Question : Why are you interest to join SWC? No idea but just try it out! Fourth question : SWC was divided into four departments, including activities, P and PR, sports and welfare. Which two of them you will consider and interest to join most? I replied activities @ P and PR.. because i'm the person just love to handle and organize events as i'm also working related to this field. The senior seems quite understand me, he commented that i should join activities as i have potential on this.. I totally agree with it! After that, still got a lot of question i being asked. I just answered it based on my opinion and how i think.. Finally, the interview over. The senior wished me good luck and informed me that i qualify for second interview, my name will be included in the list and paste on SWC board. What, still got next interview? almost wanna die already after the first one.
In between days after the interview over, i just keep staring on the SWC board and checked it out whether the results out already or not once i passed by the area.. Oops! that day i again passed by, the board seems different than previously. Oh, the list was put on the board.. I just go through the name on the list with a positively feeling.. Oh no,almost read until last names already, my name still not there yet. But, i realised that the fifty-eight name stated as Low Sai Weng, Simon .. I rub my eyes, is this true? can't believe it! shocked.. (even i keep thinking that i can qualify next interview without any obstacles - confident to my ability) .. even mike and huey ching had made it to the second interview with me.. sadly only Yumi didn't being selected to the second interview.. But she was still okay and cheerful about this news. Yeah! me, mike and huey ching had made up it to the second interview which numbers of candicates cut off until fifty-eight only. Chances to become a committee of SWC increase and so proud can represent our own school. Not bad!
This day, i wore formal wear to attend the second interview as it written on the list that we had to do so.. I walked into lecture hall.. and everyone just seeing me with special looks and expression on their face. Quite glad that many of them praise me looks very handsome meanwhile they wonder why I wore like this. I told them and they support me. So touch!! One of my close friend, Yvonne commented that i'm too handsome today until she predicted that i could stand a chance to be the chairperson of SWC (even i also think about it before as i knew my own strength and whether i can handle it well or not) - the answer is YES but i didn't think too far yet. Feeling started to be nerve and stress when time is running and almost time for me, mike, huey ching and a friend that just knew not longer in our class named Karen went to attend the second interview with formal wear expect Karen (she didn't get to know about this).. Actually we didn't prepare much also but just act naturally like normal.. Oh gosh! again far from the room, we just could see so many people in formal wear standing and sitting while waiting inside the room. Just the first step getting into the room, i just can sense that a weird feeling and almost out of breath staying inside with so many people.. a bit chaos. Can't stand it! We tried to go outside and relief ourselves. Cool down!!
Waited quite long, around two hours.. finally it's our turn.. me, mike and karen stayed together and encourage each others not to be scared and face it with braveness! Three of us stepped into the room and start interviewed by the chairperson, John Neai and three assistance committee members. John and his committee members will started questioning us and we will answer in a proper ways as Karen will be first; Mike be the second and me for sure last one to answered it. There was a time we dunno what we saying, Karen seems serious, mike just too nervous and used too much body language while me just blur and unable to handle better than i though i can. But, we believed that we already done the best and gave the best effort on it and keep consult ourselves that results is not important but the process through this interview.. can counted as lucky to qualify and came so far until even some people didnt manage to do so.. What can we do at the moment is to wait for their sms reply on Sunday, there was nothing more that we can do at the particular time.

Sunday.. me, Mike, Huey Ching, Yumi and Brian went to Yu Joe's house to do our Hubungan Etnik assignment and have a group study to prepare for upcoming coursework. Before i reached Yu Joe's house, Mike fetch me at Wangsa Maju LRT station. That time, he told me that the morning he already received message from the head of Sport Department of SWC congratulate him that he had been chosen as their committee member.. After i knew about it, i'm definitely felt happy for Mike but in the same time starting feel worry about my results.. Nothing i could do but just keep staring the handphone and waiting for the alert of message received.. Until around 2pm, i finally received a message from Pooi Ji, the head of P and PR departments congratulate me being chosen to be parts of their committee member. Whoa! felt so much relief and grateful that i was being the chosen one. However, i didn't manage to join departments of activities but chosen for P and PR departments even though i'm more interest in joining departments of activities as i prefer to handle tasks or events like Talentime Nite and Orientation Odyssey Nite.. but, i also knew that it was a valuable chances and opportunity that i manage to grab for it. That's why i also didn't blame for it as people can't always get everything they want as what they wished to be happen so. The message also written on tuesday there will be having the first meet up with new committee members on 6.30pm with formal black wear. That time i just realised that i need to choose between continue working or concentrate on SWC performance. I admit i can't have two of them to be done together as there was limit of time and for sure it will be clash on time.

Problems : What should I do now? Which one should i choose now? Which route should go ahead with? What is the best choices for me.. I knew i had to sacrifice something in order to achieve something you aim for. To be frank, i'm working not because i put money first as my motivation to work but gaining the working experience is the most valuable things i had learnt so far which you really can't change anything for it. It also let me be more mature to handle things more well day by day. But i do know that joining SWC definitely can open my eye sight to enhance my communication and management skills in order to gain more experience on handling events or tasks more flexibly and effectively and able to adapt to my future jobs. This really bother my mind and i'm the person who confuse to make a choice or decision as both of them do have a side that attracted me the most. I bet i still need to make up my mind and works out the best for the route that i'm going to choose. Only like this, it won't make me feel regret or sorry to the decision i already made..! I guess so......

Solution : Still pending...!! ^-^